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06 March 2017 @ 05:30 pm

While most people think that one reaches adulthood when you turn 21, I actually think I truly attained it when I turned 23.

I recall that when I first turned 20 years old, my best friend asked me what kind of a woman I wanted to be when I actually become an adult of 21 and over.

I said that I imagined myself to become a confident and self-assured woman who can be relied upon for anything.

I did not reach that point in life when I was 21.

But when I turned 23 not too long ago, I reflected that night in my bed and was glad that I had come this far in life to grow just a bit closer to the type of woman I envisioned myself to be.

I have loved and lost, and have learned twice over about how to free myself from those toxic emotional burdens and focus my attention on what truly matters to me.

My shoulders have grown wider and more capable of handling more responsibility from authorities, be they from relatives or from my leaders in my choir.

I've learnt the joy of serving and taking care of the needs of others, and have grown from a self-centered princess (I AM the youngest kid in my family after all ^^;;; ) to a reliable helper to those around me.

I've learnt how to be happy for others and how to put their happiness above my own.

I've taken up initiatives in activities that I know will benefit me.

Perhaps the only thing I have yet to actually change is the lack in desire to communicate and connect with strangers- in reality I'm still probably as aloof and cold (in appearance) as ever in my uni. But I suppose I can leave that till I'm 25 or something and when talking to strangers is no longer a choice but a necessity. ^^;

I might not be quite there yet, I can feel that I'm at least a good number of steps closer to becoming the self-actualised woman I've wanted myself to be.

What a time to be alive indeed. (:

Here's to another year of improving myself to be a better woman than ever.

Current Mood: contentcontent
Current Music: "I seek", Arashi
03 March 2017 @ 04:18 pm


Nope, I'm far from dead on livejournal. XD

I'm just in the middle of preparations for my final exams for the year. I'm already graduating a year late as it is and I'm just trying to realign my focus again.

Seeing that I have left my personal livejournal so SADLY neglected, I have decided to make a comeback here and give it a much-needed do-over.

I'm just going to post lots of random stuff whenever I feel like it, so please do not mind my passionate discussions whatsoever. :p

Current Mood: ditzyditzy
Current Music: "Queen of California", John Mayer
03 March 2017 @ 02:55 pm

Yeah, you see? This is the real problem with Trumpkins who shamelessly brag about Trump's victory- they are too caught up in that mightier-than-thou attitude and NEVER focus on the real problems.

Originally posted by moonshaz at Trump supporters' cognitive dissonance

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06 January 2016 @ 08:59 pm

Happy 2016, guys! ^^

As people would have noticed, I've resumed fanfic writing with a whole new Ohmiya series "From Then Till Now". This is the first time I'm writing a fanfic with so much angst in the beginning. (I had to cut short the latest chapter because I was angst-rambling well into 3k words LOL)

So, about some updates on my life outside a fanfic author...


Unfortunately, Melvin the Macbook died last year from an unfortunate encounter with the rain. My brother and father saw this as a chance for me to get a new upgrade and persuaded me to use a PC instead of a Mac. Well.. I'm still trying to get used to using a Windows OS, but I guess I'll live. Meanwhile, I'm using a lean, mean, PC machine whom I christened the name.. "Prometheus". XD

That also meant that my external hard disk drive is unreadable, because it was already formatted to be read by a Mac OS. *SIGH* ALL MY ARASHI CONCERTS, VARIETY SHOWS AND DRAMA SERIES ARE THERE TOO. TT^TT
I'll have to get them somehow using a friend's computer. *sigh* XD

2. SIMS 4!

I've started playing Sims 4. I've successfully gotten married on my own, so now I'm trying something new.
I initially thought of adding my family members but decided to try out managing three Sims- me and two other friends as roommates. I wonder how things will go for the three of them. XD

3. Studies are.... oooookay?

During my holiday of two weeks in December I took a long break off studying and have found myself behind in my studies. But as the new year came, somehow I've found the motivation to start studying. Well, better to have that drive now than when May comes. ._.

It's going to be a bit busy for me as I try to juggle between gaming, writing, fangirling and studying. But I guess I'll somehow manage it. ^^



11 September 2015 @ 02:52 am

Alright, it's been way too long since I last touched Livejournal. To be fair, I have been working a temp job and with office hours I often get conked out by 6pm and become too tired for any proper writing. TT^TT



... *sigh* well, not too bad but not too good either. I had hoped to get good passes for everything but I failed one module and I have to retake it. ._. But well... at least I can still graduate within the estimated time ^^; I guess I'll have to work much harder this time round.

My modules for my second year would include Financial Reporting, Management Accounting and Law of Business Organisations. I never, EVER thought I'd touch Law... until I saw Law of Business Organisations as a recommended module for my course.

WELL. Good luck to me. T_T


With a newer, bigger and more awesome console, I'm revving up for Animal Crossing: Happy Home Designer , a game that will be released come September 25th! I already made a preorder for it and I'm now patiently waiting for its arrival. (And praying that it doesn't get TOO expensive)

Any other 3DS owners who MIGHT want to play Animal Crossing: New Leaf , Tetris Ultimate, Fantasy Life or Harvest Moon: A New Beginning are welcome to add my FC :D

FC: 3239-6107-2150
(My ACNL Town Fruit: Peaches. I have like at least 6 trees of perfect peaches. Feel free to take them. XD I managed to snag some durians, cherries, mangoes and lemons as well.)

If there are any other details required (ACNL dream codes, ACNL apparel design QR codes, photos of my ACNL house or whatnot) , PM me XD

#3: Writing aspirations

I've finally embarked on planning a debut mystery novel that involves innocent playthings and a criminal almost as crazy as the Joker. (Or at least I hope he can be half as scary as him. I don't know how I can strike fear in myself within 10 seconds like the Joker can. ._. )

#4: Recent hobbies

Aside from writing, reading, gaming and watching movies and anime featuring psychotic, crazy criminals (like said Joker. Heath Ledger is REALLY something else) , I have also taken up crocheting and knitting. I'm now working on a camisole of my own XD (seems a tad bit small for my waist at the moment. But well, I'm just starting on it XD)

In other news, I'm trying to post a chapter update and I have no idea why my Internet is being slow about it. TT^TT

That's all for now- till the next author update!

21 July 2015 @ 08:50 am
I have learnt the hard way that there are two ways people deal with
emotional scars.

Some nurse their wounds and constantly remember how they had been
wronged, and in the end that becomes precisely what clouds their own
judgment of right and wrong.

Others learnt from their scars and their struggles to live with it and
ultimately part away from the shadows of their past. They then look at
their healing scars to feel pity for the perpetrators and compassion
for others in the same boat.

It has never been about where the scars came from- they could come
from any source in any form.

It is all about how one lives with it.

Let's see now...

"Bittersweet" was nominated in 3 categories! *squealing and reeling on bed*



Thanks so much for nominating me and my works, readers. No words can possibly express the feelings of gratitude that I hold for everyone who has done so.

It had all started out as a way for me to destress during my exams, but fanfic writing has turned out to be a hobby that I dearly love.

I thank you all. Whether I get any awards in the end or not, I feel appreciated nevertheless.  (':

I have been revising for my finals exam. I see numbers and percentages swirling before my eyes now. @.@

But I have not been idle either- a new fluff is coming up soon! *opens diary, murmurs* I shall type it out from here...

Well, that's all from the recently-21 Arashi fanfic author.  ;D *wave wave*



Just saw this article here and I needed a place to vent. So, do not mind me. XD (seriously, don't.)

1. Would you rather date someone who’s highly ambitious about their career, or someone who cares more about passions outside of work?

I would want someone who is highly ambitious about their career. Somehow, being with this sort of person can help to motivate me to do a better job and encourage me to aim high in my career. I need someone to give me a reason to work hard and to work up.

2. Would you rather be with someone who wants to start a family in the very near future, or someone who’d like to wait a few years to really figure things out?

Ehhhh. In my honest opinion, I do not plan to have kids. At all. I sincerely hope to God and pray that I need not have kids in the future. Even if my partner wants kids, I hope that he would give it some very very VERY careful thought and consider the hefty expenses that would be made. Therefore... I'll want someone who would wait a few years at least.

3. Given the choice, would you want to be in a relationship in which one of you eventually becomes the primary income source and the other is the primary caregiver, or would you rather be in a relationship where both of you work?

I'd rather we both work and be successful. :D

4. Would you rather be with a thrill-seeker, who likes to travel and skydive and try various dangerous things, or would you rather date someone who is more calm and serene?

That's too much adventure for me. No sirree. I'd rather have someone who is calm and serene.

5. Do you want to be with someone who’s confrontational and places the problem right on the table, or someone who approaches issues between you in a more careful, gentle way?

I understand that there will be problems that have to be talked out from time to time, but I receive the issue at hand better if he puts it across to me in a careful, gentle way. In the end, I'd be grateful that he even tried to put it in a way that I can accept.

6. Would you rather date someone who’s interested in a very active social life, with parties and events and activities every other night, or someone who’s more of a homebody, and prefers to stay in with you or hang out in smaller, quieter groups?

... ... ... I'm not interested in too much excitement. I'd rather date a homebody. Someone who would bring me along to his small dudes-only gatherings (occasionally), stay home and watch some old movies and TV series with me or read some books with me.. XD

7. Would you rather be with a night owl or an early bird?

A night owl. :D

Having someone to accompany me when I cannot sleep helps. XD

8. Do you want to be with someone who prefers to watch comedies or dramas and thrillers?

Dramas and thrillers. :D There's nothing like a good drama series when it comes to discussing character development and possible plot developments.

9. Do you want someone who is deeply romantic – someone who is always open about their feelings and likes to be tender and affectionate? Or would you rather be with someone who is more mysterious, subtle, and slow to reveal their emotions, but still feels things all the same?

I don't need someone who is THAT romantic and surprises me with flowers, chocolates and promises he never intends to keep XD (flowers are nice but rather impractical- I have no idea where to keep them even if I receive them)

Someone mysterious and subtle will tend to keep me on my toes more.

10. Is it more important for them to be able to make you laugh, or for you to feel like you can have an intellectual conversation with them?

I would prefer it if he could have an intellectual conversation with me. I would very much like to share what I know and learn more about what I do not know. Unromantic, I know. XD But it kind of gives me an idea as to how he thinks. And that in itself is fascinating.

11. Would you rather be with someone who has all the same interests as you – same favorite movies, same hobbies, same taste in music, etc? Or do you want to be with someone who’s the complete opposite of you so that you can introduce each other to new things?

Same interests please. XD I cannot, for the life of me, imagine myself accompanying a jock-ish guy to a game that I have no idea about. (No offense, jocks out there. I'm just not the type of girl you should hang around with. I'd make boring company XD)

I would prefer someone who likes to read, write, listen to music (any kind would do)... homely stuff.

Btw, when it comes to 'reading', I refer to the purposeful perusal of decent literature. "50 Shades of Grey" and "Twilight" do NOT count as decent literature, in my humble opinion. ._.

12. Does religion matter? Would you rather end up with someone who practices the same religion that you do, or are you flexible in that area?

I'm a Christian, and therefore I have certain commitments and a specific set of values and goals. Therefore, I would prefer someone with the same religion too.

13. Would you rather be with someone who wants to move all over the place, live in various cities, and constantly be exploring? Or would you be happier with someone who’s interested in building a life in one single place for a long period of time?

Mmm I understand the appeals of travelling from time to time but I do wish that we would settle in one comfortable spot.

14. Are you more interested in someone who likes to plan out date nights, from the happy hour to the restaurant to the after-dinner venue? Or do you want to be with someone who is more spur-of-the-moment?

If we are going on a date, I would want some structured planning so that I have an idea what to expect next. Therefore... I'd like someone who plans.

15. Do you need to be with someone who’s completely independent and often in need of their own space, or someone who’s a little more co-dependent and likes to do things together, frequently?

Definitely completely independent. I know myself to be independent of company most of the time and it would be easier for him if he were the same. I'd like it that we both find space for different things, and yet still come together from time to time to do stuff together.

16. A wine-and-beer kind of drinker, or someone who prefers cocktails? Does it matter to you?

Not really. Am not the drinking type to know anyway.

17. Would you rather be with someone who’s really into playing sports and doing physical things, or someone who prefers activities that don’t involve hand-eye coordination?

Well... clearly the sports-type arent for me. I would prefer someone who is less active.

18. Do you want a nature-lover who enjoys being outside as much as possible in big open spaces, or someone who’s more of a city person?

A city person is someone I can relate to better.

19. If you go on vacation together, would you rather be with someone who will lay on the beach with you all day, drinking margaritas and reading books, or someone who will be active with you, and is ready to go surfing or parasailing at the drop of a hat?

I want someone who would accompany me on the beach with a good book. He could read his Stephen King while I can read my Jane Austen. XD

20. Are you more interested in the person who’s the life of the party, in the center of the circle making everyone laugh, or the person sitting calmly in the back, who strikes up a conversation with you and intrigues you from the start?

I prefer someone who sits in the back and strikes up a convo with me. I'm not sure I like being in the centre of a party with anyone.

21. Do you want to be with someone who will indulge in your guilty pleasures, such as watching trashy reality shows and eating peanut butter out of the jar, or someone who is more of an upbeat go-getter?

I would like someone who is indulgent of me. XD

22. Are you looking for a passionate, intense Noah-and-Allie from The Notebook situation, or something equally as strong but more silly and quirky, such as Leslie-and-Ben from Parks and Recreation?

I have watched neither, but I think a silly and quirky relationship is more for me XD While I am a romantic, I would prefer it if we are people who can be ourselves around each other. I want to flail about my fangirlism and I want him to talk about his games and TV series and stuff.

Basically, I like weird people who have a passion for something, be it games, books, TV series or something else that I can relate to.

23. If you’re in the mood to watch a movie, do you want someone who’s going to go out to a theater with you at eleven o’clock at night, your bags stuffed with candy from Walgreens, or would you prefer someone who will eat homemade popcorn with you while you watch a movie from the comfort of your own home?

I'm fine with either, to be completely honest. I'd go anywhere or stay anywhere if it were with him.

24. Does it matter if they’re a cat person or a dog person or none of the above?

I'm going to go with a cat person. Just in case my dream of owning a nice, fat, pampered cat comes true.

25. Do they have to be a neat-freak, or are you more comfortable with someone who’s laid-back when it comes to household duties and overall messiness?

I get the concept about having a clean place, but I would rather have someone who is laid-back.

26. Are you looking for someone who’s going to order take-out and and sit on the floor with you every night while you guys eat it in front of the tv, or someone who’s interested in preparing somewhat-healthy, homemade meals multiple times a week?

I'm fine with both. XD When it comes to food, I'm not really picky XD

27. Do you want a book-lover or a movie-watcher?

I want a book-lover. For one, the book of anything is better than the film. XD
Also, I just like the idea of spooning with him while reading a nice, good book.

28. Would you have more fun with someone you can argue and debate with, or someone whose opinions lie in a similar area to yours?

When it comes to opinions on matters, I think I would be more engaged in the discussion if he has a different opinion. We can spar on different topics together from time to time, like the different reasons why Frozen is nice but highly-overrated or when and why should Euthanasia be allowed and stuff like that. :D

29. Would you rather be with someone who wants to have a big family, or someone who’d like to really think about it and maybe have one or two children?

... no kids preferably. If I HAVE to... a small family.

30. Do you need to be with a cuddler and all-around consistent spooner, or someone who prefers to roll to the other side of the bed when you go to sleep so that you both have plenty of space?

In bed, I always need something to snuggle with, be it my stuffed rabbit or stuffed cushion. Therefore.. I'd like a consistent spooner and cuddler XD
04 February 2015 @ 05:36 pm

Okay. I'm back. Goodness.

January has been such a flurry- examinations and plannings and birthday parties and.. *faints*

I've been having dehydration problems and am chugging down jugs of water. The weather here in Singapore is already heating up and it's only past the beginning of FEBRUARY.

Due to upcoming preliminary examinations, revision classes and finals, it seems that fanfiction writing has to take a back seat for a short while.

Am probably going to conclude "Reaching You" really quickly and leave whatever plans I've had for the rest of it as an upcoming sequel after my finals. (Likely to be entitled "Keeping You").

Haiis. Alright. Time to re-read and review "Reaching You" before updating and making a formal announcement...



Oh goodness will I ever get better?

I missed my choir practice yesterday because my throat was horrible. ><


In the mean time.. examination registrations for my university has already started... and I'm QUITE uncertain as to whether my sister is still in Singapore to help pay for my fees. ._. Well... it's back-to-school now in Singapore so I'm quite sure she should be available. Heh. ^^; *groans at the amount of niggling paperwork to do*

In other news..

Apparently.. ARASHI FANFIC AWARDS IS HERE~ *cough cough COUGH* .. .excuse me.

But wow- 2 years worth of fics, how on earth am I going to select them? There are just so, so many of them that I have read that had inspired me to enter fanfic writing in the first place!

Mayhaps I ought to check out the ones that I've read in my junior college days. *wonders*

And there's also my AO3 archive which has been sadly neglected. I should update it and make ONE available alternative to teatimefics just in case anything gets nominated. (Which if any of them did, I'd be very, VERY flattered, since I've only been writing for a year or so. ^^; )

Well... I have until Valentine's Day, and since as of November last year I have been rendered single... I probably can afford the time to plan everything out XD

Here's to a great time of nominating, fics searching, exam-registering and a better throat. *COUGH cough*